SPM 2004

SPM results were out. Hari pertama dan kedua lepas keputusan SPM keluar, semua suratkhabar penuh dengan cerita kejayaan Nur Amalina yang dapat 17A1. Interview dengan dia, cikgu dia, mak dia, kawan baik dia (yang tiba2 kantoikan yang Amalina dah ada pakwe. apahal?takde kena-mengena.haha.)

Anyway, 2 orang adik aku ambik SPM tahun lepas. Sorang perempuan, dan sorang lagi lelaki. yang laki tu lompat kelas masa PTS yang sekarang ni pun dah dimansuhkan. Haha. satu lagi mangsa eksperimen Kementerian Pendidikan. Keputusannya?

Adik perempuan-10A1 1A2
Adik laki - 2A1, 5B3, 2B4, 1C5, 1D7.

macam langit ngan bumi tak?adik laki aku frust. hari result kuar tu, dia balik batu pahat kejap, (sebab dia stay rumah kak long aku kerja kat stesen minyak), straight ke skolah, dan terus balik JB. tak singgah rumah. tak tepon sesapa. sampai la ayah aku call sekolah dan tanya result dia. then the news were spread thru sms among our siblings yang skang ni ada kat segenap pelusuk malaya.

adik pompuan aku? biasa je. hepi memang la hepi, tapi nak kata excited sangat pun tak. aku rasa straight A's common skang ni. kat UIA ni pun, hari result kuar tu, ramai kengkawan aku yang mana adik amik SPM sibuk bertanya sesama sendiri result masing2. bila orang tanya aku, aku cakap je la result adik2 aku tu.

bila aku sebut yang 11 A's tu, diorang kata,

'Waa..terernya!!!'

Aku gelak je.

'Apa lagi, mintak fly la. Sayang kalau tak fly..'

'Tak tau la dia. aku cakap jugak suruh tengok every offer scholar yang ada.'

'Dia memang antara top student ke kat sekolah dia?'

'Tak jugak.'

'Family ko cane?wa..sure semua orang cam bangga..hepi gila..'

'Err..tak jugak. Biasa je.'

'Haha..jeles tak adik ko nye result gempak?'

'Tak.nak jeles bakpe.'

'Ko dulu straight A's tak?'

'Tak.haha...'

'Abes, yang lagi sorang tu dapat bape?'

'2A.' Aku gelak lagi.

'La...siannye. sure dia pressure sbb yg sorang lg nye result bes.'

'Mmm..tak taula. Tapi kitorang tak pernah compare2 kan diorang pun.'

'Eh, adik ko yang pompuan tu ada ambik tak SKK? result dia cane?'

'Ha..SKK? SKK tu apa?' Serius aku tak tau.

'Sijil Khas Kolej la..eh ko ni, takkan tak tau kot...tak caring langsung!'

Hahaha. Aku tak caring ke?

Adik-beradik aku 9 orang. I'm the fifth, so it means that termasuk aku, dah ada 5 orang amik SPM dalam family aku. Lubna n Najhan were the sixth and seventh la. Tak kira lagi PMR n other 'big exams' that we've gone through. Sometimes there would be 2 or 3 persons facing their 'big year' at one time. Last year, it was one UPSR and two SPM. Masa aku dulu, aku UPSR, Awa PMR. Aku PMR, Win SPM. Should there be any more surprises, then?

We've all grown up now. Gone through bigger life changes, bigger problems, and SPM certainly felt like a looong time ago. What i'm saying is, in my view, SPM is just a phase of life u go through, and then u just have to start all over again. It sure can direct your future for, the next 5 years or anything, but it's just the gateway. You may score up to 20A's if u have what it takes, but life is about much more than that. There’s still a long way to go.

So Lubna got straight A's. And only one A2. That's great. Keep up the good work. What's the next plan?

And Najhan got only 2A's. That's fine. We're sure u have your regrets, mistakes u wish u didn't make, and things u wish u'd done, but what is past is past. What's the next plan?

A friend once said i was not 'caring' coz i didn't know who my sister’s friends are, and where does she hang out and stuffs like that. haha. i simply told her that i didn't know coz my sister never told me. it just sort of works differently in our family. When u've been apart from each other, some in hostels, some at uni and some working at other places, when u got together u want to catch up on the latest family gossip. haha. u share jokes. anecdotes. happenings in ur life that u feel like sharing. sometimes a problem.

in my house, most of the time we're extremely quiet with everyone having their own 'me' time, but at times we would be talking and laughing hysterically u just can't believe it's the same house with the same persons. (Bai and Hanan would second this, haha.they've been to my house)

Most of the time we're always cynical and critical to each other (Hell, i can't remember a single passionate talk or gesture among us), but when we support, we do so in our own way. We NEVER ask each other “is anything wrong?”, but if anything IS wrong, just tell and we’ll work it out. So, back to the SPM thingy, u may score or you may not, but that doesn’t really matter. We love you the same, and we care about you the same.

Lubna stayed at home, filling in the UPU forms and some other scholarship forms with my dad's guidance and myself. Najhan stayed at JB, filling in the forms with Long's guidance. Long told me Najhan seems quite 'blur'.maybe he expects better from himself. I don’t know whether my dad talked to him about it or not.

As a sister, I do hope they’ll choose what’s best for them, and enjoy their journey to the real life. To me, 11A’s or 2A’s, I’ll always have faith in them.

After all, this is just a beginning to the beginning.

TRAGEDI BUAH LAICI

semalam (ahad) adalah sesi membuang masa dan membuat kerja2 yang tak berfaedah untuk aku, bai dan lili. lepas dengar carta era [aku tunggu lagu Mungkin Nanti je sebenarnya], kitorang lunch, borak2 sambil baca suratkhabar.

lepas tu bai kata family dia datang dan nak lunch sekali. lepas dia turun tiba2 aku terasa nak minum laici yang ada buah. bilik kitorang mmg selalu beli satu tin, minum ramai2. lepas tu lili kata, meh aku msg bai. "bai, belikan air LAICI DALAM TIN. dengan ais skali ye."

tunggu punya tunggu, akhirnya bai balik. bawak air laici drinho dalam kotak. ais penuh satu plastik. aku terkejut la. pastu bai cam tensen je tengok muka aku dah lain."yang dalam tin takde, kalau ko tanak yang ni takpela. biar aku yang minum." aku senyum je. si lili dah gelak2kan aku. "apsal bai, memang takde eh yang ada buah sekali tu?"

tiba2 bai pandang kitorang, "La....korang nak yang ada buah tu ke!!!aku mati2 ingat dalam tin biasa tu. dah takde, aku beli la yang kotak. sama je."

"Hahaha..dah tu, kalo stakat tin biasa tu bakpe aku pesan ais beriye2!!!" HAHAHAAAA.

Last2 kitorang bukak gak air kotak tu minum ngan ais. kempunan aku nak makan buah laici aritu.

SAPE KATA MAK AYAH AKU TAK SAYANG AKU?

wah..laju plak server lab ni arini.

AKU CUAK. petang ni aku ada test land pukul 6-7. tak sure aku paham betul ke tak restraint of dealings ni.

AKU SEDIH. aku nak balik rumah. last aku balik masa raya haji. kalau nak ikutkan baru dalam sebulan lebih kot. tapi aku rasa macam2 benda yang aku buat dalam sebulan ni sampai rasa dah lama gila tak balik. kepada orang2 yang selalu pelik sebab aku jarang balik time cuti, aku nak jelaskan kat sini, bukan sebab mak ayah aku tak sayang aku tau:) malas aku nak cerita panjang.

AKU HEPI. bulan 4 ni lepas final insyaAllah aku pegi kelantan ngan member2. ada projek..hehe. sambil tu kalau sempat nak shopping apa-apa yang patut. sapa nak pesan baik cakap cepat. tapi tak tau la aku rajin nak belikan ke tak. haha. balik tu nak lepak rumah kawan kat KL lak sebab pastu nak gi roommate aku kawin. 'renjis renjis dipilis... :)' .

AKU TENSION. tak tau la. akhir-akhir ni aku cepat rasa boring dan tertekan dengan orang2 yang bila cakap atau buat satu2 benda tu tak pikir orang lain. sabar pun ada batas tau.

AKU LEGA. bila mengingatkan sem ni dah nak abis. for the first time in 4 years, aku akan bercuti 3 bulan!Yiiiiihaaaa!!! aku harap aku boleh buat betul2 final exam ni supaya nanti aku boleh bercuti dengan perasaan yang best.haha.

AKU PELIK. apsal aku masih boleh duduk kat lab ni padahal petang ni aku ada test?

^entry kali ni emo^