SPM 2004

SPM results were out. Hari pertama dan kedua lepas keputusan SPM keluar, semua suratkhabar penuh dengan cerita kejayaan Nur Amalina yang dapat 17A1. Interview dengan dia, cikgu dia, mak dia, kawan baik dia (yang tiba2 kantoikan yang Amalina dah ada pakwe. apahal?takde kena-mengena.haha.)

Anyway, 2 orang adik aku ambik SPM tahun lepas. Sorang perempuan, dan sorang lagi lelaki. yang laki tu lompat kelas masa PTS yang sekarang ni pun dah dimansuhkan. Haha. satu lagi mangsa eksperimen Kementerian Pendidikan. Keputusannya?

Adik perempuan-10A1 1A2
Adik laki - 2A1, 5B3, 2B4, 1C5, 1D7.

macam langit ngan bumi tak?adik laki aku frust. hari result kuar tu, dia balik batu pahat kejap, (sebab dia stay rumah kak long aku kerja kat stesen minyak), straight ke skolah, dan terus balik JB. tak singgah rumah. tak tepon sesapa. sampai la ayah aku call sekolah dan tanya result dia. then the news were spread thru sms among our siblings yang skang ni ada kat segenap pelusuk malaya.

adik pompuan aku? biasa je. hepi memang la hepi, tapi nak kata excited sangat pun tak. aku rasa straight A's common skang ni. kat UIA ni pun, hari result kuar tu, ramai kengkawan aku yang mana adik amik SPM sibuk bertanya sesama sendiri result masing2. bila orang tanya aku, aku cakap je la result adik2 aku tu.

bila aku sebut yang 11 A's tu, diorang kata,

'Waa..terernya!!!'

Aku gelak je.

'Apa lagi, mintak fly la. Sayang kalau tak fly..'

'Tak tau la dia. aku cakap jugak suruh tengok every offer scholar yang ada.'

'Dia memang antara top student ke kat sekolah dia?'

'Tak jugak.'

'Family ko cane?wa..sure semua orang cam bangga..hepi gila..'

'Err..tak jugak. Biasa je.'

'Haha..jeles tak adik ko nye result gempak?'

'Tak.nak jeles bakpe.'

'Ko dulu straight A's tak?'

'Tak.haha...'

'Abes, yang lagi sorang tu dapat bape?'

'2A.' Aku gelak lagi.

'La...siannye. sure dia pressure sbb yg sorang lg nye result bes.'

'Mmm..tak taula. Tapi kitorang tak pernah compare2 kan diorang pun.'

'Eh, adik ko yang pompuan tu ada ambik tak SKK? result dia cane?'

'Ha..SKK? SKK tu apa?' Serius aku tak tau.

'Sijil Khas Kolej la..eh ko ni, takkan tak tau kot...tak caring langsung!'

Hahaha. Aku tak caring ke?

Adik-beradik aku 9 orang. I'm the fifth, so it means that termasuk aku, dah ada 5 orang amik SPM dalam family aku. Lubna n Najhan were the sixth and seventh la. Tak kira lagi PMR n other 'big exams' that we've gone through. Sometimes there would be 2 or 3 persons facing their 'big year' at one time. Last year, it was one UPSR and two SPM. Masa aku dulu, aku UPSR, Awa PMR. Aku PMR, Win SPM. Should there be any more surprises, then?

We've all grown up now. Gone through bigger life changes, bigger problems, and SPM certainly felt like a looong time ago. What i'm saying is, in my view, SPM is just a phase of life u go through, and then u just have to start all over again. It sure can direct your future for, the next 5 years or anything, but it's just the gateway. You may score up to 20A's if u have what it takes, but life is about much more than that. There’s still a long way to go.

So Lubna got straight A's. And only one A2. That's great. Keep up the good work. What's the next plan?

And Najhan got only 2A's. That's fine. We're sure u have your regrets, mistakes u wish u didn't make, and things u wish u'd done, but what is past is past. What's the next plan?

A friend once said i was not 'caring' coz i didn't know who my sister’s friends are, and where does she hang out and stuffs like that. haha. i simply told her that i didn't know coz my sister never told me. it just sort of works differently in our family. When u've been apart from each other, some in hostels, some at uni and some working at other places, when u got together u want to catch up on the latest family gossip. haha. u share jokes. anecdotes. happenings in ur life that u feel like sharing. sometimes a problem.

in my house, most of the time we're extremely quiet with everyone having their own 'me' time, but at times we would be talking and laughing hysterically u just can't believe it's the same house with the same persons. (Bai and Hanan would second this, haha.they've been to my house)

Most of the time we're always cynical and critical to each other (Hell, i can't remember a single passionate talk or gesture among us), but when we support, we do so in our own way. We NEVER ask each other “is anything wrong?”, but if anything IS wrong, just tell and we’ll work it out. So, back to the SPM thingy, u may score or you may not, but that doesn’t really matter. We love you the same, and we care about you the same.

Lubna stayed at home, filling in the UPU forms and some other scholarship forms with my dad's guidance and myself. Najhan stayed at JB, filling in the forms with Long's guidance. Long told me Najhan seems quite 'blur'.maybe he expects better from himself. I don’t know whether my dad talked to him about it or not.

As a sister, I do hope they’ll choose what’s best for them, and enjoy their journey to the real life. To me, 11A’s or 2A’s, I’ll always have faith in them.

After all, this is just a beginning to the beginning.